'cause I had the best of the worst sides
And I had these lungs
And I had too many flash fires
That I just let them burn

Till my chest is on fire
And my head just won't die
I guess I'm lying 'cause I wanna
I guess I'm lying 'cause I don't
'cause I just feel so tired
Like it's move
or slowly die
You ain't you when you're like this
This ain't you and you know it
But ain't that just the point

You don't know how to let go
Who said this must be all or nothing?
But I'm still caught below
And I'll never let you know
No, I can't tell you nothing

'cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes
But still I could always be
Whatever you wanted
But not what you needed
Especially when you
been needing me
'cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes
And I'll say what I don't mean
Just 'cause I wanted
Or maybe I need it
Swear lying's
the only rush I need

'cause all I needed
was some words to say
That all these feelings
don't mean shit to me
'cause it's all just
chemicals anyway
Anyway, yeah
And I got way to many routes to take
To make this all just go away
And find another heart to break
So heartless with the words I say
Just saying what I'm supposed to say
'cause I had nothing for you
I can't love
when I can't even love myself
Things I would rather
be thoughts
At the back of my head
But I'm addicted to hurting
And I got these lungs
And I spent too many late nights
Thinking a hole in the earth

Till the sky is on fire
And my head still won't die
I guess I'm lying 'cause I want to
I guess I'm lying 'cause I don't
'cause I just feel so tired
Like I need something to come alive
She said you ain't you
when you're like this
This ain't you, what you done?
And I said: that's the point

You don't know how to let go
Who said this must be all or nothing?
But I'm still caught below
And I'll never let you know
No, I can't tell you nothing

'cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes
But still I could always be
Whatever you wanted
But not what you needed
Especially when you
been needing me
'cause I'm a fucking mess inside
And I'll say what I don't mean
Just 'cause I wanted
Or maybe I need it
Swear lying's
the only rush I need