I had a chilhood full of love
I grew up with a family that's been watching me from above
I went to school
I made new friends
They told that friendship never ends

So they started talking
and my friends stabbed in the back
So my innocent soul got its first crack
So I started asking myself
"What did I do to deserve this? "

I could say that I'm a mess
But instead I made the choice that I don't deserve this

I fell into an endless hole made of tears
Cried by my lost and shattered soul
Even if they knew that I was so fucking down
They spitting into my face
Wish that I would drown

So I decided to make their wish come true
I couldn't take what I was going trough
So I took a wire and put it around my neck
At the age of ten, this could have been my end

I could say that I'am a mess
But instead I made the choice that I don't deserve this
And they ripped my heart out of my chest
But I made my choice
So now I let you hear my voice

So I started asking myself
"What did I do to deserve this? "
This could been my end but I chose the right way
And these scars could mend

I know that I could say that my life is all a mess
But the experience of it turned out for all the best