I was a girl You was a man I was too young To understand I was naive I just believed Everything that you told me Said you were strong Protecting me Then I found out That you were weak Keeping me there Under your thumb Cause you were scared That I'd become
Much more than you could handle Shining like a chandelier That decorated every room Inside the private Hell we built And I dealt with it Like a kid I wished I could fly away But instead I kept my tears inside Cause I knew if I started I'd keep crying for the rest Of my life with you I finally built up the strength To walk away Don't regret it
But I still live with the Side effects Waking up scared some nights Still dreaming about them violent times Still a little protective About the people that I let inside Still a little defensive Thinking folk be trying to run my life Still a little bit depressed inside I fake a smile And deal with the side effects
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Thinking inside No-one was there Couldn't be real Had to keep quiet Once in a while Put up a fight It's just too much Night after night After awhile I would just lie You was dead wrong Said you was right Did what I could Just to survive Couldn't believe This was my life
Flickering like a candle Doing my best to handle Sleeping with the enemy Aware that he was smothering Every last part of me So I broke away And finally found the strength To be me
I kept my tears inside Cause I knew if I started I'd keep crying for the rest Of my life with you I finally built up the strength To walk away Don't regret it
But I still live with the Side effects Waking up scared some nights Still dreaming about them violent times Still a little protective About the people that I let inside Still a little defensive Thinking folk be trying to run my life Still a little bit depressed inside I fake a smile
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Forgive but I can't forget Every day I'm filled with this I live with the side effects But I ain't gonna let Them get the best of me