That hoodie was the best thing to happen to me

Like the one thing that you salvage from a house fire

When you dropped me at her house

'cause I'm just too much to deal with

I'm the last kid that should be around a lighter

And lying's such a chore, but the truth feels so wrong

And every turn I make just keeps

me from getting where I want

But when I confide in her, I tear apart the earth

There's somebody who has it ten times worse

There's no time left to pity and I see it in my friends

And they all look so much older than me

But tonight I'm feeling brave

I think I'll act my age until a kid says

that there's something wrong with me

And sometimes the smoke smells good

Leave the window open when it's freezing cold

I know

When you left me home alone

when you left for your award show

I ditched you guys and died, laid in the snow

Spent too many nights

Pinching my sides wondering if I'm living in a dream

When I don't know who to ask

I think that I'll just pass, like

maybe I'll just figure it out myself

Butterflies inside me, they turn into tapeworms

And I stay awake 'till my stomach hurts

So when it's 4 AM and I can't eat anything

I'll wake up too late and get what I deserve

And I know, I told you two weeks

but it's been seventeen years

And every time I sing they close their ears

It's all in my head, it's cheesy but it's true

If I could, I'd blame it all on you

Sometimes I'd try to talk, and nothing comes out

And most of my memories aren't how they really were

I'm slipping on the line, I'm confused all the time

When you go to claim your bags, don't claim what's mine

And sometimes the smoke smells good

Leave the window open when it's freezing cold

I know

When you left me home alone

when you left for your award show

I ditched you guys and died, laid in the snow

I have this funny dream that I moved to Bombay Beach

And I'm never seen or heard from again

Won't have to watch out for

sharks swimming in the Salton Sea

Even though I'm more than sure that one just bit me

And I've been performing poorly

but it's so hard to be honest

She's been threatening that I go get some help

When I picture your face it comes up as someone else

Someone who's treated me the same way