Didn’t I try
To love her?
Didn’t I paint
Pictures of her?
Didn’t I try
To change?
I shouldn’t have bothered.

Didn’t I buy
The ocean for her?
Didn’t I wear
The colour (?)
Didn’t I feel
The wind?
Didn’t I plead?

She is strange
And sorrow.
She is
Like cherry blossom.
She is
The Empress.

Didn’t I kneel
Before her?
Didn’t I follow
Her orders?
Didn’t I clean
Her shit?
Didn’t I fall?

Didn’t I climb
The ladder?
Didn’t I smile
For the cameras?
Didn’t I feel
The wind?
Didn’t I plead? (? bleed)

She is strange
And sorrow.
She is
Like cherry blossom.
She is
The Empress.

She is strange
And sorrow.
With lips
Like cherry blossom.
She is
The Empress.