Tell me how to feel
Show me what is real
I tried to back away but everywhere’s the same
and in this over-conscious world all I want to do is dream

I don’t know what you held onto to get this far but I need some too
Because I’m slipping from existence and there’s just no resistance
to stop this all from happening

Today the pain it got so bad I had to scream
I’m cutting myself because I cannot face the world around me, that’s nothing
I’m cutting myself because there’s no way out
Dispersing what I feel so I feel nothing

I don’t know what to do
To be as numb as you
I must be doing something wrong to always feel this down
with an overwhelming urge to shut out those around

I tried to reach out to the past but the lesson learned was to not look back
The memories will just confuse an overwhelmed and frightened youth

I’ve learned to accept it
I know that that’s pathetic
I can’t explain to others I know that they’ll reject it

//deepgrrrl