Maybe I should've been a painter
But I can't stick between the lines
Maybe I should've been a builder like the old man
Get home to you just after five
Not smart enough to be a doctor
Can't even take care of myself
Wish there was more money in horses
But I'd probably lose that bet as well

I know I should be grateful
For all the things that I've got
Theres a million and one reasons I should be happy
But I'm fucking not

I got so much more
Than I bargained for
Now I'm beating mysеlf up
I'm dying on the floor
I thought it would bring me some pеace
But its started a war
Now its ripping us apart
I don't know anymore
It's a double edged sword

It used to be so much easier
When I was doing the rounds
And even though I'd get home late
At least my feet were on the ground

I know I should be grateful
For all the things that I've got
And I know I should be happy
But I'm fucking not

I got so much more
Than I bargained for
Now I'm beating myself up
I'm dying on the floor
I thought it would bring me some peace
But its started a war
Now its ripping us apart
I don't know anymore
It's a double edged sword
It's a double edged sword

But I've only got myself to blame
That I'm not proud
Maybe if I bang my head off the wall again
I'd figure it out

I got so much more
Than I bargained for
Now I'm beating myself up
I'm dying on the floor
I thought it would bring me some peace
But its started a war
Now its ripping us apart
I don't know anymore
It's a double edged sword
It's a double edged sword